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A Flush of Thoughts

As I was beginning to write my entry for the pass few days, I suffered a mental blog yesterday. Thoughts were all jumbled up that I couldn't find myself writing a complete sentence which I understood at all. Now I truly understand the meaning of having a writers blog. One of the reason behind this all was because of watching a movie "The Butterfly Effects" that was really disturbing to me. I was simply stone after watching the movie. It reminded me of another movie "The Lord of the Flies" which was equally as disturbing which featured two groups of boys who got lost in a deserted island and they began to killed one another to survive by eating the flesh of those killed. I realised that there are some movies that are interesting to watch that is better not to watched at all looking at the message that being brought across which seem so negative. After a good session of jamming at the studio coupled with a well rested night, I had manage to overcome the effects of a bad movie and is ready to pour my heart out this time.


I had simply good time back home this weekend. My brains had been pounded by a whole load of thoughts and ideas that seem intriguing and interesting yet thought provoking. I was blessed to find a lot of answers to alot of question and problems that I had within me. At times, there a lot of challenges that I faced within which I choose to ignore. I sometimes wonder why so many people choose to indulge in their problems to a point it make them look so miserable and disorientated. This is what I observed in their statuses on YM and also their personal blogs which I read occasionally. I do agree at times that I too myself suffer from this but I try my best to minimise this. The most common topic would be the topic of relationships. I must admit I have a fair share of thoughts on this as well. However, I realise there is more to life that to worry about a relationship. It is important but do we solely concentrate our entire life solely on this. I have faith that God would provide the right One at the right time. But not until then do we think about it and try to live our life to the fullest.

I had just listened to a sermon by Joshua Harris "Rescuing Sex Part II : Are you committing pornography?" I had downloaded it previously but didnt find the right time to hear it. It was alright for me, maybe because I am currently half way through my second reading of "Not Even A Hint" which touch on the topic on lust. I find it rather irrelavant to constantly fill my mind with this all the time. Relationships, Sex and Marriage seem to had got a hold of me in one or another. It had caused me to seek after it, to know what is right and what is wrong, what should be done to life a pure life until marriage. At times I get so confused at the end of the day and questioned myself whether it is worth to know so much. All of this seems relevant for us to plan for the future. However, is this the true desire of the heart? I believe the true desire of the hearts lies in knowing who I really was made to be and also to know the One who fashioned me in this way.

I learned a lot this week throught listening to a group of people from Australia and New Zealand who had stopped by to minister to us. It seems like a mission trip for them to come and blessed the people in another land. Something which is similar to the mission team that had gone into the interiors of Sarawak to minister to the indigenious people over there. Who should be mission be directed to? I would agree in ministering and sharing to people who have yet to hear the Word of Life that we as Christians believe in. It doesn't matter what country you come from or the social status that you possesed, but to reach to the lost in the world.

What I had learned from the seminar?

1. "The Spirit is willing but the flesh is weak"

There seems to be a constant struggle between the flesh and spirit. The spirit wishes to grow in spirit with God but the flesh does not want to. Such opposing action results in a constant battle within one self. There needs to be a balance struck between the both of them. I realised this is one area that many of us suffer from. And there is a tendency whereby the spirit suffer the outcome where the flesh is given the upperhand in decision. I have a similar struggle as well. Wanting to practice holiness but my actions defeats that purpose. It is so easy to build principle in life and say that you want to keep them. Faced with such circumstances, it is a different matter all together. I had fallen and have regret to have walk a path that was not meant to be walked upon. This is because I made a wrong choice and have to bear with this consequences and by God's grace, I would constantly remain pure before his sight.

2. "A Servant is someone who does what he is told to do. A Leader is someone who does something MORE THAN what he is told to."

This sentence truly stuck a chord within me. It was something that takes alot of effort and initiative to do. I sometimes find this lacking in the CF especially the CF Comm. Most of us do what we are told to do. Its more of a job rather than a service. Its hard to imply to them regarding about this though I had made attempt so speak of it and also to show them. At my position, I am currently the vice-president that functions to support and help the president. There are some disatisfaction regarding about how things run which have seem to be something that is so often see especially being in the committee for the past 3 years. At this point of time, I decided to not try to hard and be disappointed in the end. I would just go about doing what I am currently doing and help the most of my ability as I can that is to lead by doin more that what is being told to me. At the end of the day, its about serving Him and not men. Joy would abound if God is put into perspective of our service.

Family Reunion

It was a rare occasion to have everyone in the family to gather together during the weekend. Most of the time, everyone is so busy that we seldom have time to meet and catch up with one another eventhough we are in the family. The usual time of such gathering would be during Chinese New Year and Christmas. However, it was good to see my aunties and cousins

I was pretty happy and at the same time worried for my aunt after hearing that she would be setting up her restaurant's third branch in Cyberjaya. Ede's Cookshack had manage to survive and prived on areas such as Taman Mayang, USJ Taipan and now Cyberjaya. Her shop would be located at the newly constructed white building that was adjacent to the black building of LimKokWing. It was going to be situated at the foodcourt that had been build in that vinicity. That place would be targetted to cater to the people in Cyberjaya, namely working people and students. I even heard that McD and Starbucks would be opening there as well. All of this would be schedule to open their doors in mid-June.

My aunt shop is famous for its signature dish called "Country Dingos" that seem to be a rare dish around the Klang Valley. It is native American dish. She had learn the recipe of this dish when she was travelling in America as an air stewardess. Cooking seem to be a passion to her. That was one of the motivation that got her starting up her restaurant. One of my fears for her is being unable to cope in managing this 3 restaurant. She would be constantly running up and down to make sure all her restaurant are in order. At times when I see her, she seem so tired. My dad is also worried for her as well. All we can do right now is give her the support she need and try to lend a helping hand whenever the time comes. I guess I would try to help her in her shop in Cyberjaya when I am free since its only a 5 minutes drive from my place.

We were going through ideas of how to tap into the business opportunities. One of the niche market that my aunt shop cater to is to the African students. She had got alot of respond them that said her food taste like home because of her cooking that comprise alot of meat sauce. Looking at this advantage, we suggested that she target the international community in Cyberjaya that comprise mostly of working adults as well as students. This is one target group that had not been paid much attention to in terms of food. There is a big community of Africans, East Asia and Iranian students in this place. It be good to introduce some of their dishes so as to encourage them to visit her shop more often.

I do wish sometime in future I be able to venture into the food industries as interiors and food has always been the best combination I take a liking for. I guess channel 11 of Discovery Travel and Adventure was a major influence for me.