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"COMBO"

Well, havent wrote in here for the last 2 days but although there were some thoughts that i could have waited it to be 3 and get over it, im just afraid that it be way too long for anyone to read especially when the writer himself is one long winded person. so before i start wasting any more precious lines, allow me to spill it out:

13 JANUARY 2004

"Living Without Being Tempted"

I committed this day into God's hand that I'll be able to go through this day without committing to temptation. It's even harder for me today because I was fasting. I practice fasting and praying every Tues due to my commitment in CF as part of the committees. So, when u try to be pure on this day, i realise the temptation is even far greater and i realise sometimes i fail in carrying it out.

It was a rather relaxing day today as I only have 2 classes and a 2 hour class of CISCO in the evening. I was actually spending alot of time in the room and also continuing to read the numerous blogs that i had came across and was also in the room praying. I notice that praying with an empty stomach causes one to be fully concentrated on talking to Him. You can really feel every word that you speak to Him actually mean something. I'm not saying that everytime i pray to Him i don't mean what i say but sometimes what we say we don't really mean it sincere heartedly. As in every word that speak is powerful or speaks volume. That's why i truly enjoy praying with an empty stomach. It really means depending on Him without having to worry about what's for lunch today. Can't really recollect whether there was a thought today cause it was already 2 days already.

The night was kinda interesting as we did something differently in CF tonite. There was NO SPEAKER. But, we had our fellow friends speaking to us about the "Creative Ways of Evangelism". They were Kevin Koay, Leo Koo and Peik Yin. I was rather surprise when peik yin came out to speak. For the very first time, i actually heard her speak that loud. Though, she was kinda jittery for a while, I apploud her for her effort and courage despite being a junior and also someone who maybe quiet in some ways which i currently do not believe at all.

Each of us were divided into 5 groups and i was in group 4 where we had our beloved Dr. Ian as our leader and also a beloved senior whom i respect and treasure, Colin Pal. Our scenario went something like this;

Ezdi is an international student from Iran doing his masters degree in Engineering. He just arrived in Malaysia a few months ago. He is friendly, and very outgoing, and doens't mind mixing around with strangers. He loves meeting new friends and loves going to 'happening' events in campus. He enjoys listening to music and singing too. However, he finds that he is running short on money, and his parents are finisng it difficult to support him. He is thinking of looking for a part time job. Ezdi was brought up in a Muslim family, but is not very sure when it comes to religion. he just follows what he had been taught since young.

One interestin thought that struck me was what Colin mention about. He said that we shouldnt just chuck the gospel in his face and expect him to be save. We should address his problems first before we start telling him about Christ. Just like what happen during the time of Jesus when there was 5000 people who wanted to hear him but they were all hungry. He addressed the problem by supplying food to the ppl by multiplying the 5 loaves and 2 fishes. Then, did he start preaching to them. I guess it suported something i believe in. I'm not use to speaking directly about the gospel. I would normally take situation for instance a friend asking about a scenario and try to tell him in a bibilical kinda way. I feel it works more cuz the person understands rather than just follow blindly.

14 January 2004

"Wasted"

It wa seriously a long day and although i was practically free most of the time i didnt do anything concrite for that matter like study for my exams that be comin after the Chinese New Year break. Classes were onli in the morning but i manage to do something which i havent been doin for such a long time...GYM! afternoons were filled with checking some blogs BOSS send me, blogs by those in CF's. It was cool to see that they are many of us who choose this medium to express ourselves daily, our pains and laughters. I really enjoyred reading Wee Liem's one and notice that Michelle D was a very poetic kinda person. Besides that, was chattiing with Boss and were sharing with one another. Manage to encourage him but will be praying for him so that he may can go though this all. Also realise that Boss has really change to a person i saw as quiet to a super gila guy. It's nice to have him around cuz when we combine, it be a lunatic asylum.

One of the highlight for tonite was the "Fellowship of the BRAINSTEWERS". we manage to gather a few of us and made our way to Milo Kau for a time of get together. It was really great to see everyone and what's more to see the bond still there. I guess we all have the same wavelength that why we are able to get to know each other well. I truly cherish this group of people and will continue to remember them always. The best group I ever met

Besides it all, i manage to finish listening to Joshua Harris's semons on relationships. Already finish the second sermon and guess his sermons were relaly inspiring, really serious yet i feel that the relationship he spoke about taught me about purity and righteousness. Planing to burn it to CD and give one each to my buddies, Eunice and John and also Expressio. Give more inspiration to rely on Him that He will provide and He will definitely know the best for me. An interesting thought;

"Marridge is temporary. What is more imporant is to know our selves and our role on the kingdon of God. It is a gift to be married."

I'm hoping to receive this gift and hope that i wouldn't take it lightly because it is a gift from Him...