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2 February 2004

First day of the 7th week of trimester 3 and fortunately today was a holiday due to the celebration of Hari Raya Haji. So I decided to wake up early and start studying. However, one thing to another and I got myself checking out from one blog site to another. I tried to read my notes but nothing really concrete went in so mind as well I indulge in something else hoping that I will be able to concentrate and to input some knowledge into this head of mine. I realise a lot of people are into blog. And the interesting thing was, all of those blog site are interconnected. They somehow know each other. Its like a circle of something. Reminds me of ecircle in certain ways. I realise they were a lot of high profile girls blogging as well. Some of them are quite pretty I must say. Most of them love socialising. There are into clubbing, dining and travelling. It was rather fun looking at the pictures that they took on their various ‘adventure’. I prefer looking at the pictures rather than reading the blogs. To me, a picture speaks a thousand words. Looking at their site caused me to think about setting up my own personal site too. I’m not sure when but one day.

Facing With Temptation

I was rather disappointed with myself in certain ways today. Disappointed that I didn’t keep some principles that I made or stood on my grounds when face with a situation. Instead, I allowed myself to be lost in fantasy and dreams that cause me to lost my whole state of mind. I realise also that talking is easy but practicing takes a lot of discipline and perseverance. Am I matured to handle situation? Am I able to make decisions concretely without changing my mind about it? There still a whole lot of things that I need to cultivate in myself so as to be someone who sticks to his word and not falter through circumstances. Guilt had overwhelmed my heart but what was done, was done. I realise today also that I’m someone who thinks too much and who seeks perfection even when I’m not perfect myself. I expect people to be perfect in certain ways and if they don’t I get disappointed or sometimes have mixed feelings about that person. I wonder why I have this kind of ideology built within me. Maybe I haven’t really been exposed to people that much that cause me to think everyone is like me. But, recently I realised that this ideology is beginning to fade away and I’m beginning to accept people for who they are and what I expect them to be. It does make the world a better place to live in, I must say.

The Power Of Rest...Just A Little Is Sufficient

It was kind of a frustrating night for me. Having loads to study, nothing did go into my head. Maybe it was the loads of thoughts that were bombarding my little mind. Adding to it, my eyes were beginning to signal a closure. Looking at the possibility of not being able to concentrate, I decided to take a short nap. And boy, was I surprise by the result of it. Everything on the notes, which I tried to understand since afternoon, became clear to me. It does make a lot of different when you study with a fresh mind. And though I wasted half and hour sleeping, it was worthwhile thinking that I didn’t need to waste an hour sitting down and trying aimlessly to understand what I was studying. So if you can’t seem to understand, take a break and I can assure you that your timely decision will save you the time and effort to do about anything. A fresh mind, A new beginning!